“Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere. They’re in each other all along.
– Rumi
How I met my twin flame
I met my twin flame many years ago. At that time, I had never heard of twin flames and had no idea that connection existed. I wasn’t looking for a new relationship or someone to fall in love with, and I had not thought of or read about soul connections.
But there he was, standing in front of me one day, and while introducing ourselves, we had no idea what would happen in the years ahead.
We met at a spiritual event. I had seen him a few times at the event during that week, and we had also written to each other briefly in a Facebook group before the event. So I knew who he was, but we had never spoken.
I didn’t know a lot about him and had not thought that much about him before that day, but for some reason, I started thinking about him the morning we met while I was getting ready. Somehow, I just knew that I wanted to talk to him. I didn’t know why, but it felt very clear.
But as the day went by, I met many other people at the event and almost forgot about it, and it wasn’t until later in the evening that I saw him.
We bumped into each other in a break between two talks at the event, and I introduced myself, and we started talking.
We also ended up spending some time that evening and had dinner together, so we had time to get to know each other a bit, and we decided to meet up again and exchanged contact information.
Looking back at it now, I know we were meant to meet then and there; there is no question about it.
But that evening, we had no idea how significant this meeting was, and we were unaware of the powerful connection that would develop – or reveal itself.
The relationship developed quickly
We met up a few weeks after the event, and after a while, we also started meeting more regularly. Initially, it wasn’t a romantic connection; it was more about our mutual spiritual interest. But we were very drawn to each other, and our relationship developed quickly.
After a while, our connection became a romantic connection for a time. But we were never a couple, and as time passed, the relationship developed into a friendship in the physical world that lasted for about six or seven years.
Even though we were friends, I always thought we would end up together because of how the connection progressed in the following years.
But the most significant experiences we had together happened internally, beyond the physical reality, and never manifested in the physical world.
I started to remember who I am
A short time after we met, it became clear that this relationship was not like any other I had ever experienced.
In the physical world, there was little evidence of what kind of connection we had beyond the physical world, and the people around us would not have been able to tell what was going on beyond the surface.
But beyond the physical reality, deep processes were happening, and a deep connection was forming – or being remembered.
When I met him, I started to remember who I am.
Not who I am in this lifetime; Hanna, born in this country, with these characteristics, interests, and family. But who I really am, my true and unconditioned self, my soul.
We already knew each other
When we meet people for the first time, we usually get to know the surface first, and it can take some time to really get to know someone or develop a deeper connection. That was my experience with all new relationships before I met my twin flame.
But with him, it was different. We learned surface things about each other, but it also became more apparent that we already knew each other on a deeper level.
We had never met before in this lifetime, so we didn’t know each other’s human self or conditioning – the programming from culture, old ways of looking at ourselves and the world, and learned behaviors. But we knew each other beyond that, at the level of our being.
When he came into my life, he came in from the opposite direction than other people – from the deepest depth, from beyond all the conditioning.
And while everyone else knew my conditioned self, who I was with all my human programming, he knew me without it; he knew my soul.
Our souls knew each other before the programming covered up who we are, and before we incarnated in this lifetime.
And all of a sudden, there he was in my life, and I started to remember who I am – who I was before I was conditioned to be someone else.
And it was as if two worlds collided.
How I sensed our soul energy
I had never heard of twin flames before I met him, so there was no way for me to know intellectually that we are the same soul having two experiences – or two souls from the same soul.
But the moment I sensed our energy in him for the first time, I knew that we were the same. I knew it on a level far beyond words.
I could recognize the energy I sensed in him in myself. And I knew that energy at the depth of my being, because that energy is also in me.
It felt like home, home in another human being.
We were different but the same
On the surface, we were not similar. We had some similarities, but we were also very different.
But our soul energy is the same, and it is expressed in different ways in us; we are different expressions of that energy.
I could sense excactly how our energy was divided between us, and how we both were that energy but different.
Without being able to put it into words, I also knew that when we are both fully ourselves (when there is no conditioning), our energy is whole, and the energy is in its natural state: at home and in harmony.
Memories of being together in other lifetimes
I could also remember being with him in other lifetimes, and those memories came up at different times throughout our journey.
The first time it happened was a day when we were walking in nature together. As he was speaking, it was as if I was suddenly taken out of time, and all I could think was, “Here we are, doing this again.”
I knew we had been here before; it was as real as this moment. Not in that specific location, but here in human form at another time in human history.
I felt happy, and the worldly matters we were discussing suddenly seemed so small.
I had never had experiences like that before meeting him, but it was very real, and the memory was in my soul/consciousness rather than from this lifetime.
These memories and experiences of being taken out of time also started appearing more frequently after a while.
Telepathy and our higher selves
During our time together, new dimensions of reality also began to open up. Our connection went from the physical world to a deeper knowing of a soul connection to telepathic communication.
I had never experienced something even close to that before, and I didn’t dare to tell anyone about it since it was so far from my former experience of reality. And I was afraid that people would think I was crazy.
But our telepathic connection became more and more established, and I could sense and communicate with him without being in each other’s physical presence. I could also communicate with his higher self.
There was also an enormous pull between us. We were constantly pulled toward each other, internally and externally. And as twin flames, we were always in each other, and I could almost always sense him from a distance.
We could even have sex without touching each other, and it wasn’t sex in the usual sense or fantasies. It was divine and deeply healing.
During that time, I also started to open up to new dimensions, even in areas other than the twin flame connection, and new ways of receiving information and guidance. I began to have visions and started to receive my life mission.
The intense processes
Since we were (and are) the same soul, we knew each other at the very core of our being. But at the same time, we were not entirely ourselves, our souls, when we met in this lifetime.
There were layers of human conditioning in the way of our soul connection, and they were beginning to surface as our connection developed.
The relationship began intense processes of cleaning out the layers between us.
Both of us were already years into our spiritual paths when we met, but our relationship became an acceleration of our awakening.
About ten months after we met, I experienced self-realization – a permanent shift in consciousness where I realized who I am, my true self. At that moment, I also saw through the illusion of my old identity, the ego identity, and the identification with that identity fell away.
No words can accurately describe this shift in consciousness, it has to be experienced, but it is a complete realization of the true self, who you are at the core, your soul, your inner essence. And at the same time it is an embodied state of being, a full alignment of your soul and human self.
The realization changed my perception of reality at the core, and it took years to integrate and understand it so that it made sense even on a conceptual level.
It was also followed by an intense process where I cleaned out my old identity and life in the internal and external worlds. It was a process where my conditioned self was falling away.
The twin flame relationship was a significant part of that process. It helped me see many things I had been carrying inside – old cultural beliefs and expectations, inner wounds, and places deep inside that I had been running from without knowing it. Everything that was not the real me.
It was all coming into the light, and we both triggered each other’s conditioning so that we could see, process, and heal it and come back to who we are, back to wholeness.
Our love could hold everything
In that process, we mirrored each other as souls, and we also reflected each other’s conditioning.
And beyond all that was happening on different levels, our higher selves were guiding the connection and loving each other unconditionally through the pain, the joy, the revelations, the shame, the fear, the trauma, the happiness, and the wonder.
Everything coming up was seen, experienced, held, and loved unconditionally.
His soul could look at and love all my wounds and everything I was ashamed of unconditionally, and I could do the same with him. It was relief in that and there was nothing we couldn’t hold in our love. At least until we got to a certain point on our journey, where we hit one of his core wounds.
That is when our relationship really began to change.
The relationship ended
Even though we were in each other’s lives in the physical world and were there for each other through certain things, our physical connection was not the same as our soul connection.
Many of our mutual processes happened beyond the physical reality, and much of what happened internally between us didn’t manifest in the physical world.
We also had a lot of challenges in our human connection. And I went through much of the awakening process alone, even when he was in my life.
I have learned that it is nearly impossible for twin flames to be in each other’s lives if both aren’t keeping up with the connection or willing to work through their wounds. Or ready to let go of old facades that may feel safe but are not in alignment with the truth.
During the years we were in each other’s lives, I thought we would end up together as a couple because of our soul connection. And because of what happened between us in our inner worlds.
And my experience is that that was where our souls were leading us.
But he wasn’t ready for that. And the last 1,5 – 2 years before we went our separate ways, our connection struggled.
For me, the relationship caused a lot of pain during those years. It was a very confusing time, and it hurt to see him make choices that hurt our connection.
But it started to become increasingly apparent that we were no longer in the same place and that the relationship had filled its purpose. It couldn’t keep going the way it was, so it had to change or end.
And it ended.
The pain of separation
Losing him in the physical world was an unimaginable heartbreak. Losing the one who is the same soul, after you have met them and had them in your life, is beyond anything words can ever comprehend.
It felt as if it was a hole inside me; it even felt physical.
We had not been on the same page for quite some time when we went our separate ways. So, I knew we weren’t getting further in our connection and had sensed it for a long time. But that didn’t take away the pain of losing him.
After he left, it took time to process what had happened, move on, and trust my own experiences again.
I had trusted this connection so much and thought we would be in each other’s lives forever, and when it didn’t turn out that way, I started to doubt my experiences.
It took time to rely on my inner guidance and compass again. And now, years later, I trust my experiences, and I can look at the relationship from a different perspective.
I know that we can do all we can in the relationships we are in, even the spiritual ones, but we can’t determine the outcome, and as long as it has to do with another person, it is not entirely up to us – even if it is our twin flame.
Our connection filled a purpose
The relationship didn’t turn out the way I thought it would, but it filled a deeper purpose. It was part of our spiritual awakening, and our connection was helping us both to let go of our egoic programming, the ages of human conditioning we had been carrying around. It also provided the possibility to remember who we are and return to our whole selves again.
We didn’t get there together, but the relationship propelled us both in that direction.
And I am happy that I met him in this life.
Some words about the twin flame journey
The twin flame journey is the most beautiful experience on a soul level. One that many people don’t get to experience in this life. It is a journey of awakening and unconditional love.
But manifesting that love in the physical world is not easy. It takes working through our inner and outer conditioning and stepping out into the world as our true and whole selves.
And it takes a lot to do that.
If the twin flame love manifests in the physical world, it is heaven on earth.
But we can also be whole on our own, and live and create heaven on earth* even without our twin flame.
We humans are awakening and returning to our true and whole selves now to be able to move forward and live in a new and higher state of being.
For some of us, the twin flame journey is part of our path – and for some, the twin flame relationship is even part of their new destination (their new physical reality).
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**The experiences I share in this article are entirely my own, and I can’t speak for my twin flame’s experiences.
*Heaven on Earth:
As in Heaven – means our new internal state of consciousness.
As on Earth – means our new internal state of consciousness manifested in the physical world.
